Dum dee dum...I'm still addicted to SG. At the wrong time.
Well, the exams are here.
I don't think I'll be studying real hard.
Cept for the double Maths and Physics...
Other than that...just light revision, do some TYS questions
And I'm off.
Haha, I dont feel the desire to excel...
Just lost it.

The SYF is over! We achieved Silver! So I think its a sustained Silver for ...3 or 2 years. 2005 is indeed our school's Silver year. >.< Dance, Choir, Band, Orchestra.
Its pretty boring these few days...nothing seems to be interesting. Cept for the books.
Well I'm going to study alongside with my SG on and running...
Helike is capping Pompeii...a great improvement since yesterday.
I wonder if I should even try to get the form for our school's Cambodia trip. Its humantarian and also geogaphical reasons to why my school planned it...
Hmmz. Well my A-Maths sucks. 3 class test were not that fantastic. And my class is highly competitive.
I guess it will be a b4 or b3 for my A Maths. Again.
English. Will suck. Previous counted works were not as well done.
Chinese...I got a 70 for the project works. Hopefully it will pull be out of trouble in the mid-year paper.
E-Maths. Its so-so for now. The class tests were pretty average. I fear for graphs. For what hell did they put it there?!
Sciences. Physics is SO gonna get c5 and yet again. Or even worse
Biology. I don't think I can get a A1 for this. The Hong Kong paper test on plants wasn't fantastic.
Chemistry. Its in the middle. Not too fantastic. Not too drastic.
This spells disaster. I needa work my ass off for A Maths.
Burn some brain cells for Biology and Physics.
I really don't think my mid-year results will be fantastic or to my expectations.
I have a really good gut feeling that I'm gonna flunk.
Its getting pretty dark in here.

It all came.
At one shot, during this pathetic 30 days,
All squeezed into one.
Very fun!
Exciting!
Exhilarating!
And tiring.
No mood to type any further.
Plus...I just decided to rejoin SG after...2-4 months break. ^__^
Thinking whether I should p2p for it...
--Just bought a bunch of classical music CDs! S$60++ in total. My poor...Mum's wallet. X.x Baroque, Relaxing Classicals and Tchaikovsky's Symphonies No.4,5,6. Expensive Music.
--Sleep sleep sleep. I don't ever feel the passion to revise...o.o I'm so fried. =.= I swear more time will be put into eating up my textbooks and TYS-es.
--Just read JX's blog...what would I do if I had one day left...
Probably I'll sleep in bed or watch anime or play games.
I won't socialise, I won't talk to others. Cause I might die anytime. Silently fading.
But now you're just a teen. Anything comes. Anything goes. Would you know? Nope.
Just do, what you want to do. While you can.
2 cents worth of thought.

My bro just came back from Taiwan! (From training that is)
He bought me a pathetic candy! Which is actually quite nice. *Boooo*
But he bought wine for my relatives lol!
So that means my brother -can- shop, but to a certain limit.
I saw him play DMC III
Yucks, it was only then I noticed I could equip more than 1 weapon and change it thru the stage.
Coz I disabled tutorital from stage 1 =)
I am SO going to play DMC III today night.

...Long day. D.A.I all day.
Laze all day.
Work all day.
Can't wait for the end of today.
Let us pray for the passing of a great man today.
Lets hope nothing will screw up the future days.
Exams. SYF. All crammed on the month.
Let us rejoice.
^_^
9th April - Rehearsal @ SCH
12th April - My B'day
21st April - SYF. BIG DAY!
30th+ April - Mid-Yr? Yes.
Very eventful, yes?
Separated by 1 week. I could not wish for more. Perfect.
Gotta sleep early. These few days my panda eyes just keep getting worser.
Must have afternoon nap I guess, which is virtually impossible.

I spent the whole day...lazing? I can't remember what I was doing...Ah! I was playing "Supreme Destiny", another MU-type of game I guess.
Spend the last few hours of wake to revise on Physics online.
And guess what! I bought Do As Infinity's newest 6th Album! "Need Your Love" ! Much more expensive than the norm of $19.90. I got it at $22.90 at Sembawang Music. My wallet is crying bloody murder! Anyway, this album comes with a DVD, 2 MTVs, BE FREE and ROBOT. Haven't got the chance to watch it...yet.
Okay...I'll have to worry for tomorrow, will it be Chemistry or Physics? Not to mention I have to mug for Biology and Chemistry...Oh yes, HOMEWORK!
Sheesh! Betta wakey early tomorrow...SUNDAY TIMES! Yayayayayayayaaaaaaaaaaaaaay~

OMG! I got an A1 for that Physics ISPL Test! Oh my goodness!
Now I hope my A-Maths ISPL won't suck, though I have a -good- feeling it might.

Well. ISPLs are over ^.^v
And mid-yr papers are killers.
They are soon-to-come.
And I'm so excited.
Not to mention that I have a gut feeling that I screwed the physics paper for ISPL.
Totally.
Until T got enlightened by my teacher
Its too late anyway.
20% failures. We are so dead.
Anyway, a tiny army of TYS-es has bombarded my poor Bro's room
Yes, I'm using his beige room for a studying room for myself.
Fun, no?
His room is so cool. A very bright place if you pull the curtains out.
How am I going to study after he finishes his NS?
He is certainly not the type to stay in hostels.
That sucks.
...
...
Well, we'll talk about it after his training. His room is cool.
Cause I can concentrate.
But not in my silly pink room.
Even thou both rooms has a PC in it.
He has a PS2 and a TV.
How i.r.o.n.i.c.
Probably I always on my PC to d/l stuff.
Maybe, maybe.
Haha. I feel left out for CIP Leaders, Operation Teddy Bear!
Coz it lies on a THURSDAY.
And that is a sacred day for the Orchestra's training.
Plus I have to go back to school on Saturday for extra training.
*sob*
1 more bloody month and I'm FREED of this cage.
It lies on my birth month. Wow. Talk about coincidence?
Not really.

I'm so determined to make it happen.
My beautiful rantings.
Life, is all about picking yourself up, no matter how deep u fall...
Yamaguchi Kumiko from 'Gokusen' said words of wisdom.
Life can be altruistic at times
Its just how u look at it
Hmm, my Internal Dialouge is often pessimistic (Feb 2005, Reader's Digest)
Gotta change to Optimistic.
Life
Is
Beautiful
I will continue to believe that.
Till the end of time.

>> process of learning self-discipline<<
have to reinforce the rule i made earlier this year...
no comp...on weekdays...
bah, resolutions.
can someone make up a motivation for me?
seems like nothing can get me going
only to be stuck in this empty bottomless world of mine
lazy is what i am now
im gonna change it, for the better.
i feel empty nowadays, sometimes lying in bed is what i want, but can't.
move move move
no space for lazy bumssss

these past few days i've been watching anime...my bro bought Witch Hunter Robin, it was great! the storyline really stood out. the opening song, "SHELL" was good too
i bought last exile. another great anime from Gonzo. i have no idea why my cousin said it was boring on Animax, but its a pretty cool anime. the characters grow within the anime, character growth?
have to work now, i think i spent 4 days watching anime...and doing -some- work.

->Lyrics for Dareka no Negai ga Kanau Koro
I've lost something important because of small things
The cold ring showed its glimmer to me
I said, "All I need is today," but that wasn't the case
The door to you vanished without a sound
The more I wish for your happiness, the more selfish I become
But still, I want you to stay, and I always did
When someone's wish comes true, she'll be crying
That way the door won't make a sound
I wanted to become the only one who can heal you, who is needed by everyone,
and I've endured it a little too much
To wish for own happiness is not selfish, right?
If that's so, I want to hold you as tight as I can
When my tears dry up, she'll be crying
That way, the ground under us won't dry up
The more I wish for your happiness, the more selfish I become
But you never hold me back, you never did
When someone's wish comes true, she'll be crying
Everyone's wishes can't be granted at once
As the small earth rotates, I learn to become more kind
I want to hug you once more, as soft as I can
-By Utada Hikaru

Howl's Moving Castle!
I just watched Casshern on Friday, after 2 hours of pure entertainment...I fell in love with Hikki's Dareka no Negai ga Kanau Koro (When somone's wish comes true). The MTV was very well done too!
The story's was pretty cool, Tetsuya looks a bit like Power Ranger's brother if he wears on the weirdo helmet (White base, 2 long "antennas")
Heres one of Casshern's poster,

Luna looks so cool!
Btw, I got in 38 in my X-Country, 1st time I actually got into first 50...O.O
I had 2 unlucky numbers, "748" was my number, "Qi Shi Ba" sounded like go and die in chinese.
"38" relatively similar "San Ba" =.=!
I bought Howl's Moving Castle Movie Soundtrack (even though), cause it was the LAST one on the shelves of Music Junction @ Jurong Point. The theme song "Sekai no Yakusoku ~Jinsei no Merry-go-round" [The Promise of the World: The Merry-go-round of Life] is real nice.
I'll try putting "Dareka no Negai ga Kanau Koro" 's MTV online...

I'm gonna cut my hair today. Its so long! It always curls when the weather's too hot...everyday. XP
I'm near to the finish for Xenosaga II, hopefully I finish before the March Holidays...
CO day camp and all those crap...*sigh*
I'm bloody desperate to watch Howl's Moving Castle now...*slaps self*
Enquiring to go for a Physic's tuition class from Just Education. I'm downright desperate.
Guess what...Just Physics, On Friday...
Physics 6.00 pm - 8.00 pm Mr Chew
Chemistry 8.00 pm - 10.00 pm Ms Ng
My GOSH! It's ideal! 4 hours in a container...!
I'll probably die at 10pm.
Tuition marathon! I have it already though...on Wednesday, at least with a 45min break...
Lalalalala~ I have to work my ass off tommorow, seeing that I have a lot of work....

I'm so tired.
My results aren't that bad. Everything goes with my expectations (hopefully) cept' for A Maths with a shocking grade of B3. My Chinese was fantastic. An A2.
I must learn NOT to compare but only compare me with me.
Control. Patience. Relax.
Till next time when I have Time.

Time and Tide Waits for No Man

Okay, I think I'm screwed...no mood to study!
Well I DID study Sri Lanka SS stuff, went through the Physics MCQ TYS questions, Enzyme Chapter...
I think its too little and yet I don't feel like working.
My CT results? Its okay, cept' for my classmate who topped the class in ALMOST every subject.
I told him to go home, stay far far away.
My stoichometry is screwed, last few questions killed me. Rather, I have no inkling on how to go about it.
My piano...haha not too bad for this week!
Rondo, Ternary Form and Binary Form... xp
I'm guessing that my Chemistry, Humanities, Maths and hopefully Biology gets a A1.
Physics and Chinese is the impossible for this term. C5 to B3. Thats about all it can get.
Xenosaga II is great. The battles irritates the hell out of me! I'm on the 2nd disk already, clocked at 10 hours or so. I'm thinking of a change in music. Maybe XS II ending song.
Biology Enzyme test is tomorrow.
Lalalalala~ I spent my whole MORNING and EARLY Afternoon making a SC map.
For laughs and bloodbaths, of course.
Till next time,
=p

I'm back from camp [Jalan Bathra, MOE]! I managed to play Xenosaga, in fact for only 2 hours on 2 separate days, 1 hour each. Yes, I sneaked in my brother's room and played for a while. God bless my mother didn't keep the PS2 yet.
I tied up the loose ends for my work, only to find out that I've completely forgotten A Maths. Congratulations to me. I've little confidence in my upcoming result slip...Physics certainly sucked...
I'm scared, as well as excited...Xenosaga keeps me going.
I bought Love Celeb 1 and 2, really cute comic! A bunch of us [Cat, Wan, Jx and another girl plus me] went to Westmall. We checked out the cinemas [Yes, with our "lugagge"] and Howl's Moving Castle is opening...TOMMOROW! OMGOSH! Hauru no Ugoku Shiro! Wan wan also pointed out free HMC postcards...Howl is so cute! >.< A splitting image of Haku.
I pray for tommorow's results, most likely they are coming tommorow. I'm freaking scared! Certainly, I gave it my all...

i bought xenosaga 2 today.
so close yet so far
*cries*

Argh. Just got my debate and Biology done and over with. I pray all day and night that I don't get extra.
I still have...OBS Sabah Form to fill up and gamble with my luck to get in
Geog WB, Bio WB, Eng Compo.
Sheesh. English Compo! Plus summary. Bleh
I'm complaining. I can't stop.
I think I'll print my blog entries out and submit it for English Compo, since its on JOURNAL writing. Everything goes, ya? Straight zero.
Mom just banned me from PS2. God bless she gave me the chance to complete Suikoden IV, if not I'll be similar to that of a deprived-of-drugs drug addict. Not to a large extent of course.
My mom's unreasonable. She practically forced me to get a remedial for maths instead of going to Unity Sec to cheer my debate friends. What a excellent mom I have.
Plus she got pissed, dismissing that the debate team doesn't give me any 'CCA Point'. She's totally right, totally practical. I was thinking that as well too!
BLAH.
I hope for my CCA to have marked my attendance. I really do,
I need the points.
Dam those people who came up with points. Bullsh!t. totally.
Point dominated minds results in one way track. HECK!
Angsty? nah.

Update! I finally found a music host! Nope, its not any ad-ware-ish site but Angelfire! No pop-ups here =).
Featuring: Xenosaga II Movie OST, Jr.'s Theme
Actually I don't know whether if its actually ALLOWED. However I'm in Singapore...Copyrights don't reach here, plus I disabled right-clicks and etc.